god damn it… I wanna fuck him shit… I should have keep going

Dream!

I had a dream about you last night. It kinda worries me just cause it means that I wanna talk to you. But I don’t know, you and me just don’t mix anymore and I’m said to say that. People just say “talk to him,” “be his friend,” and “nothin can go wrong.” I thinking about it, but I know we just can’t talk. We yell and get mad at each other because that’s you and me. I think it’s because of your girlfriend. Your girlfriend control your life and I never did that to you before, so why let her do it. I never minded you talk to ex’s; now that you got your arm around her, you stop talk to ex’s and girl that are just your friends.
People lately have been asking me about you. I just don’t know what to say. I kinda get upset but that you and me, I guess. Sometimes I wonder if you ever think about me. Then I realize your probably thinking about your girlfriend, not me. 0.o

Love,

ok so there is so much to say and i just dont want to lose you is the first thing i wanna say. Sometimes I feel like you don’t care about me or give a shit about what I’m saying. Yea, I’m shy and you just gonna have to get over that because thats me. Im sorry I’m saying it like this. But Im really done cry about stupid things, like you being mad at me and you not talking to me. I can handle it but not all the time.If you dont wanna work it out, you need to tell me that. I just don’t wanna keep try if it not gonna help. I know that I love you and that what makes me so shy and it makes me so nervous, I’m sorry about that. I’m try here and I just don’t wanna get hurt like I did in the pass. Right now there is a lot things going and falling apart around me also and i don’t know what to do. The fact that you said I give up easily isn’t true because I’m try so hard not lose you. It hurts when you say that and makes me cry and it makes me really want to give up… So yea. That’s what’s on my mind… And if this is like bye forever, let me know so I can try to move on.
Kay

this is my jam!!!

one of those day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it’s one of those day when you wanna know if he likes you and you screw it up by rejecting everywhere he says. I like him and I didnt wanna tell him but i should have. :( then everyone is being mean to you. Even people you dont even know are being lil bitches. I feel like I need to stay way from guys… they just bring bad luck. I need to finish off the year and move away to Miami. I wanna say good bye to everything including friends and losers! FUCK ALL THE HATERS!